Sunday, September 13, 2009

I hate being on meds

How much does it suck to be dependent on antidepressants to be okay? The sides effects can totally suck. But what's the alternative? Being depressed also sucks. At least if I take the pills I can work and I'm less likely to kill myself. Sheesh, what a choice.
I started an ADD medication a while ago and the side effects were crummy so about 8mos later I've stopped taking it. I did it right, lowering the dosage for a week, then cutting it out altogether. And now I feel worse than I remember feeling before I started it.
Are drugs like glasses? The moment you start wearing them the more your eyes degenerate?
I like the idea that eating organic and cutting out sugar, caffeine, alcohol, dairy and gluten can help without drugs, but who the hell can actually do that!? What does that leave? veggies, fruit, meat, soy...
If a person has trouble with depression and ADD how can that person follow such an extreme diet program. I think that most people or at least many people who are depressed eat to fill the hole. Doesn't that require sugar? And people with ADD have low impulse control and I personally feel like sugar takes the edge off. Behavioral addiction to unhealthy foods seems like it would be a pretty common problem for people with depression and ADD, so how can a person correct the problem?
That just leaves drugs.
Stupid antidepressants and stimulants. Stupid side effects. Stupid depression. Stupid ADD.

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